What are you thinking of? What's on your mind right now?
Trying to lock in to writing and lock out of a depression slump.
I can see the tendrils of a story in my head and am trying to keep my brain healthy so I don't lose it. I'm also trying to stay in a headspace that will allow me to actually change my behavior and life trajectory.
I'm thinking about university. I'm going to school for a history degree and I hate how the science of history is taught, total ideology. Trying to approach any historical subject objectively is derided as a fools errand and writing explicitly from an ideological angle is encouraged. Technical and not so technical terms are thrown around so much they lose all their meaning or are badly misused and I'm gonna have to fucking roll with it as I'm graduating in spring and keep saying "uhuh, this means that, sure".
One lecturer who looks exactly like fat adam friedland was ranting about how he was the first one there to write their dissertation about something not from the country and how it was bad to not have a global mindset. Looked up what he'd written and it's only about his homeland and fucking videogames. Also found out he's a reddit moderator and has been talking about being a historian and expert on there for at least 15 years while he only got his bachelors 6 years ago.
Late middle ages northern europe
currently procrastinating on math homework. i hate that i'm somehow in college (for a science major, even!) and yet i can barely follow basic math.
Wondering if there's anything to be done about the sloppification of culture or if it's just a natural process, like it's all just part of Baudrillard's sign order stages or something.
I was dumb and telegram'd some random who pretended to be a girl then made a collage of my face and dick to send to everyone on my instagram and "ruin my life". I don't have much of a life so I don't much care about people I haven't seen or talked to in years seeing my face and dick but am I fucked somehow legally? The college claimed I send nudes to underage girls and my dick and face is not in the same image. I'm a bit spooked
Also let me add how thrilled I am that /lit/'s worst fucking thread now has a place on this site. Snake eats its tail and swallows its own shit in the process.
Jealous of gay dudes right now
What are women's bodies? wear a nice dress but beneath they are these ugly punctured and twisted things dressed up in nice words like curvy and soft.
Breasts are udders. The thighs loose. The crotch is all about a wound functioning as gloryhole. (This is why 50 shades of gray/bdsm/tortureporn appeals, at a bodily level)
The softness is not for its own sake, which would be great, but to make growths (breasts, ass) and holes simpler in construction
Then there is the weakness, the periods, and the yeastiness, and also pregnancy, and penetration.
The female body is exclusively architectured for sex
It's a body of pornsick incel, material and design. the ultimate bdsm cage, the female flesh
is there escape?
>7619
if you think that's a tranny you fundamentally misunderstand both trannies & women
PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
Do not turn this into another tranny thread
I told you all about Kiwifarms retards, you didn't listen
I’m thinking of how much I hate modernised opera productions.. I DON’T want to see “The Clemency of Titus” where they all wear T-shirts or “Le Prophete” set in space. What’s even the rationale behind these artistic choices?
Heart surgery. Found out a few years ago that I have a coarctation of the aorta, makes it really tight. Gives you sky high blood pressure and bad blood flow. They usually detect it when you're a kid. They're either going to replace the valve or do a stent. The valve replacement has a 2% chance of paralysis, needs replaced every 15 years, and I'd have to be on blood thinners for the rest of my life. Stent needs checked up on more often but the operation is less invasive. Either way I'm stuck with this shit for life, and I never know if I'll have insurance in the future.
I'm not too worried about it. My childhood doctors could've investigated my heart murmur back then, but a lot of kids have them and I'd still be dealing with the repercussions. Can't be mad at them. If untreated then my lifespan is 35-40 years old. It's just something I need to do. Dealt a bad hand
Have to make the most of life from now on, it's not going to be a long one either way.
That this is a pseud site, lol.
I am thinking about how to escape my work. We have to use AI so much and it's uniquely bad code, with the leader bragging about how many lines he wrote.
Overarching that is thinking about why the vibes are so bad right now. Last week it seems was hard for everyone I know.
Every day I feel more and more stupid. It's as if a part of my brain has been removed (which manifests in an almost physical sensation). I read, and I can't say I do more than let my eyes wander (already too tired from lack of sleep and screen abuse "for productivity's sake"); I find it enormously difficult to write, and in general the texts I produce are insipid, poorly structured and, I'm very much afraid, incoherent; I speak, and I can only limit myself to repeating mechanical phrases, without any kind of substance (sometimes, however, I disguise this emptiness with a tone of confidence that embarrasses me); as for my interlocutor's words, reflecting afterwards I realize that either I directly didn't understand what the other person meant to tell me, or I horribly misinterpreted what they said (I suppose for others it must be like talking to a fragmented person, who talks and talks but doesn't say anything that can be understood, or that doesn't even connect).
In short, it's a situation that saddens me greatly. Otherwise, I'm not sleeping well, I'm stressed all the time and, in general, it seems that the finger of God has pointed at me, and not with good intentions.
Someone complained I was flexing my intelligence with an overwritten comment on social media today. The sum total of it was about as long as this paragraph and I shot it off in seconds. I definitely wasn't flexing anything. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be an elitist douche, but god damn, trying to be humble really fucking backfires sometimes.
>he has a job to lose
Oh hohohoho.
:/
It seems like either I have been banned from posting on /pt/, or something is wrong with the server, as it gives me an error when I try to create a new thread.
>7717
So... you do nothing while CHADgineers build the world around you?
>B-b-but muh chatgpt
I'm not a coder.