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As in intoxicants? If so, stimulants all the way. I don’t enjoy relaxation.

I vary between the two. Try to keep my personality like water, able to fit into any situation if possible. Success rate is a little better than middling.

i would live the rest of my life in an opiate bliss if i could, but i'm too neurotic for unabashed addiction

Weed and alcohol made me fat so I had to cut them out. Stims are cool but the crashes are tough and I value my sleep too much to really "abuse" them (I took a reasonable dose of daily adderall for a few years). Nicotine struck a perfect balance but it is an evil evil chemical. LSD was cool until I took too much one time and fried my brain a little bit. Ketamine is alright.

Drugs are great when you can keep them a rare luxury, but that's difficult.

>>9573
In terms of personality, I am a somewhat quiet, non-reactive person, introverted but not socially inept, drawn to moments of longing or absorbed thought. Like probably most here, I enjoy learning about pretty much everything. I am a closet perfectionist but in reality painfully mediocre and doomed to a nothingburger life. I am a Renaissance [person]/ jack of all trades in a world where that has less than zero utility. I like to think I'm an okay person but other people seem to react very strongly negatively to me, which has been my cross to carry in this life.

As for drugs, I dislike the feeling of stimulants so much I do not even drink coffee or teas with caffeine. I would probably be more of an alcohol user if it did not trigger my seizures. I am definitely a cannabis person, a drug (in its unadulterated form) which matches and accentuates all of those traits I listed above. That is what I use it as, an accentuating agent. If you are thinking that cannabis usage has formed my personality traits, I would like to point out I did not touch the drug until well into my 20s, when my personality was already developed, though I will admit to its infamous calming effect shaping me in a more subtle fashion (I like to think this is maturity instead). I did LSD a couple of times but was not extremely impressed, plus its stupidly long duration means I can only ever take it between 8 and 10 AM. In the future I would like to try mushrooms and perhaps other psychedelics at a low dosage.

I wonder where the discrepancy comes from; between people who take drugs to directly counteract their traits and those who take drugs to accentuate them.

Sorry, meant to reply to the OP.

Schizoid and neither. I drink a glass or two a week which I view as a kind of ticket cost to socializing, which I don't even want to do, but have conceded is necessary. If I need to feel better, or just abstractly want blissful experiences to stave off existential angst, I masturbate or meditate. I'd be willing to try mushrooms largely because I think it might help me make more progress in the latter.

>>9599

Are you like actually diagnosed with ScPD? Feels contradictory to be on a forum whilst being schizoid.

As I've learned to understand the effects of drugs on my body, my mind, and my locus of control, I've learned how to control them. Weed focuses me provided I have intention. I think it focuses a lot of people, but that they focus on the wrong thing. Alcohol is the great social drug, never drink when alone, only drink with people. Never socialize only to drink. LSD is something I may never try again, but I'm not sure that I need to. Set and setting really is true here, but I do think that having a "bad" trip can be productive. Mushrooms are similar for LSD to me, but I'll probably take them again. Being outside on mushrooms is such a nice experience, the only problem is understanding the dosages.

>>9607
Yes. I don't know how that would be contradictory. If anything, spending a bunch of time on forums as a release valve 20 years ago instead it becoming an noticeable crisis point with my parents is how I became this way. You can also have a personality disorder and be someone taking steps to correct it. That doesn't mean you don't have it, just that you aren't one of the people who wallow online identifying with it instead of willing to get better.

>>9577
>I would probably be more of an alcohol user if it did not trigger my seizures.
Are you the anon who once told me in the dreaming thread to get my "awake dreaming" to get checked out?

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>>9631
Yes that was me, hopefully I was wrong and your symptoms were benign?

>>9633
I had a work up done and a shrug was my answer.

I always thought I was some form of adhd/autism but every time I've taken stims it's been a disaster. then a couple years ago I found out I have a gene that makes my body hold onto too much dopamine

>>9641
disaster how?

>>9645
I'd overheat and get nosebleeds

dropped acid the other day.

>>9942
I have some more to say: I like psychedelics, but I think I fear that they are representative of a materialist truth (i.e., everything is just chemicals, man). When I was younger, I got very interested in the power of mushrooms and LSD. They really seemed like portals into another dimension or vibrational level, uplifting the banal and moving back to the curtain just a little. Then, I thought about how they are like a magnet being pressed to an old TV. They just cause the sensational to go haywire for a little bit. Is that profound, or is that just a mistake? Now, obsessing with psychedelic drugs feels juvenile. But the experience is still very beautiful. I looked at many trees and had fun with my friends. Maybe that's all it is.

Geolocating myself with this but I live in a state with no legal weed so if you don't have a dealer or want to hike it across state lines you get these hemp-derived THC drinks. I don't have any flower in the house and have cut down weed use significantly, so if I desire a buzz I grab two cans from the corner store. Chug the first sip the second and it's like an edible with mixed results.

Picrel probably has the cleanest-feeling high of all the brands. Makes sense as it was the first big brand on the market. I've tried others and they feel more like small dosage amphetamines than THC. Your mind darts from one screen to the next, I feel fidgety, unable to focus, etc. The other weekend I drank some awful tasting Cheech & Chong branded drinks and they sent me into a four day long dopamine spiral. It's nice for going to the lake though.

>>10029
lol I see those cans at Total Wine and I live in a legal state so I've never wanted to try them. Hemp Bill being struck down might result in those being banned come November btw.

>>9572
i thought about it and i'd also accept a benzo addiction

Passionate and quick to get deeply into things and then drop them at a moment's notice, but usually with at least some kind of self-justification. Unable to sit still or go without talking for long. I am very extroverted, but in most social situations, I find myself acting like a freak to make people laugh. My friend recently said he wouldn't hypothetically date me because I am an "insane person" (I disagree).

Related to all the above, I am a drug addict. I regularly use stimulants. I take pregabalin once a week (technically a downer, but it makes me hypomanic). I buy a blister of tapentadol (an opioid) every six months or so. I had to quit ketamine because I didn't want to develop bladder issues and can't control my usage.

>>10289

Oh, I forgot to actually answer. Stimulants.

>>10298

Ty

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I was a fentanyl addict.
Don't use cartel drugs.
Stop giving those bad dudes money.
Grow your own shrooms or something.
Just stop the coke.

Tertiary topic: why even be sober?

I am a Sensitive Young Man and usually find some injustice to fixate on or fantasy to indulge in if left alone with my thoughts, which, being quite introverted, happens often. I’m decent to be around, occasionally even charming, but find socialization taxing and often go long stretches with minimal in-person interaction. I like music, animals, books, running, vidya, compsci. At best I immerse myself in hobbies and projects while emerging from my cave often enough to not go insane, at worst I refuse to engage any more than necessary with the imperfect world around me and coast as best I can.

My drug of choice is and has been weed, which, to answer OP, is almost always an upper to me. It feels like taking off a pair of dirty sunglasses. My thoughts flow more freely, my interests intensify. Feelings become less muted, which is a double-edged sword, but sometimes being miserable is better than being sad. The issue is that regular use makes me stupider and lazier. Life becomes both harder to tolerate and less worth attempting to change. Recently I’ve given it up, though it’s not the first time I’ve said that.

I have been on a low dose of vyvanse since getting a proper ADHD diagnosis two years ago, and find it helpful for mood and focus. I’ve never used prescription stimulants recreationally.

I have had great experiences with LSD and mixed results from mushrooms. I tried a large dose of DXM once and it was awful, nearly vomited and my scalp itched like hell, music sounded unpleasant and emotionless too. I would like to try benzos and/or opiates but am scared I’ll like them too much. I enjoy nicotine and must actively avoid becoming addicted to it. Alcohol is fine in social settings, but I don’t typically find getting proper drunk worth the physical effects, and if I drink alone I’m liable to become embarrassingly depressed.

The weed in Prague sucked. It feels like Europeans don't smoke anymore. Where's the stringy white dudes with dreads? Am I just living in the 2000s?

Personality: shutin sperg incel

Drugs of choice: stimmies and alcohol

I'm a pretentious trans woman in a large Canadian city and I think I'm better than people around me. I'm in grad school and I read a lot. I drink socially a few times a week and smoke once or twice most days, which I have successfully quit a few times but gotten dragged back in.

I've experimented like most people with weed, LSD, mushrooms, opiates, all that. I've generally found them either mid or actively unpleasant. I have an especial propensity to get horror trips from psychadelics, so I avoid it all now.

These days, the only recreational drugs I do are cocaine at parties and other stimulants a few days a month at home, when I enjoy going into a focus hole and messaging people or working on my own projects. So, very much an uppers person!

I attribute this to being pretty comfortable with myself and enjoying creating and working on things. A lot of people I know around me—most of my social world is other trannies—strongly prefer downers and enjoy disassociating or otherwise losing themselves. I find that whole experience really frightening, whereas uppers let me 'be more of myself', either socially in the case of coke or productively with stimulants. There is a double-edged swords to stimulants in particular, and I've had to claw myself back from relying on them for writing or other creative pursuits I really care about. I found that using them in that way meant it difficult to do those things sober, and it took away the soul from those activities.

>>11620
>A lot of people I know around me—most of my social world is other trannies
What is the reason this is so common with troons?

>>11631
maybe because so many people call em that

>>11631
I think it's pretty obvious why people with similar backgrounds and social standing group together

>>11637
>>11639
I like trans women broadly speaking for their contribution to STEM fields and electronic music--I'm no chud--but I think it'd be better for them and those around them if they tried to blend in more with women, rather than being their own thing.

>>11643
well it's a bit of a bind they find themselves in... most don't pass as cis women, they haven't experienced female socialisation, a large proportion (possibly a majority) are somewhere on the spectrum, they don't usually seem to have typical female interests... it's hard to see how they could easily mesh in to female society.

>>11647
True enough, but these obstacles could possibly be overcome, at least partly, and it'd benefit them politically.

What a curse this site has, every fucking discussion ends up about gays, trannies, or racism. You morons can't talk about fucking anything else, nor do you even want to.

>>11651
The user above said her 'personality' was 'trans woman'. It is a common observation that a lot of transsexuals talk almost non-stop about themselves and what life is like as a trans woman. The trans men are worse, and don't compensate for this with a substantial record of achievement in computer science, music, or mathematics.

Degenerates flock together.

Back to the drugs topic: drugs should, of course, be banned, their users imprisoned, dealers deported to Outer Space. I only drink alcohol, and while I drink in substantial amounts, I wouldn't be considered a bon vivant. I think to be considered a bon vivants one has to drink wine, and I only drink spirits, mostly whisky.

>>11655
>I wouldn't be considered a bon vivant

Yeah, we can tell